Whoops didn't post yesterday because I was too busy being really sexy (I was having a meltdown because I met new people and I thought they did not like me) Today was pretty uneventful because I've spent a majority of the challenge trying to soothe myself constantly which is incrdibly annoying becauseI feel like I'm not doing anything useful or fun. I did make some really good pasta today out of roasted bell peppers, basil, garlic, anchovey and capers that was a fantastic dinner. It was like a lukewarm pasta salad kind of deal.

Tomorrow will most likely be curry, with a fried egg situation I'be been wanting to try my hands at. Maybe I'll actually manage to make the jewel for the laptop while I'm at it and work on the building mini kit thing I bought. Tekk asked for a course that she wants me to design, so maybe I'll try my hand at structuring it tomorrow with my reference material since the software I'll be using will be demo-only. Maybe then I could get a job.

I feel kinda bad because I don't really do much.

My tummy hurts. I've felt off all day and I don't know why. I did manage to go to a job thing at a local library, but then it turned out the jobs I was interested in weren't the ones they were actively 'campaigning' for, so the guy maning the station couldn't tell me much except 'apply as soon as possible.' I felt a little silly for going half an hour out from my home just to be told I didn't need to be there. I tried to ask if there was a known turnaround time for someone getting back to me, but got nothing. Oh well.

I've felt weird all day. I didn't need to take a nap, but my lower abdomen is killing me, and I keep having weird dreams. They're intense and story driven, and kind of stressful. I think I probably have the dreams to blame for my lack of good sleep. I checked the cpap data, and it says I'm at 100% effeciency when I sleep. I wonder what's sapping so much of my energy. Dinner was spam fried rice. I was suprised the asian market had the flavor of spam I was looking for, Tocino. If you ever get the chance, I implore you to try it. I was able to use the rest of the veggies from yesterday's meal and now we only have a lone bell pepper. I'm thinking of making curry, so if it manages to live a few more days it'll be thrown into that. I guess I could also use it for breakfast, we'll see what I'm in the mood for.

Tekk's nail has alrady chipped. I suspect this is both user error and she being too adventurous with how she uses her hands. I'll have to keep that in mind when I do them again later. I need to actually get up tomorrow morning and see if that improves the weird feeling. I'm scared of starting a new job and somehow sleeping through it.

It's day 2! I did something unthinkable today. I applied for jobs. It was just as miserable as it sounds.

In better nws, I got to do Tekk's nails and managed to get down a super nice gradient, along with making the best dinner ever made. Since I can't really reference youtube videos, I just replicated the recipe based on what I remembered, and it worked out pretty good! The dish was also entirely vegetarian, which was a cool added bonus. I fried some eggplant and then made a sauce with garlic, ginger, dark soy sauce, hoisin, rice vinegar and some starch water. The main side was a veggie rolled egg omlette I made and rice, naturally. It was 'chinese inspired' as people who have no idea what they're talking about like to say.

Selkie went home today and that was sad, but I'm sure he's excited to be home with his boyfriend. We got lunch at the cool cafe down the road before we headed out. It was nice. I managed to organize and tame the nail corner as well. Its annoying when I go to do something there and i can't because its such a mess. Hopefully the jewel will be dry enough tomorrow that I'll be able to cast it in silicone and let that dry.

Tomorrow marks finding the city's mobile HR department and begging for a half decent job. I hope Tekk can come with so she can be free of the hell that is her current company. Who knows if the city is any better, though. As long as I don't have to live with someone breathing down my shoulder, I'm happy at least.

I hope I'm not as tired tomorrow. Today I was actually pretty awake.

Day 1 complete! It's starting to cool down here in New England, which is nice. I'm not used to humidity and heat, so it's frustrating to try to get things done and being harassed by sweat. I made the mold to replace the jwel on the clamshell, but forgot how long it takes air dry clay to set. I'll also have to sand it down a bit before I make the silicone mold...an oversight on my part. We went to ChinaTown today and managed to pull some awesome stuff from the stores. I got a ton of Cinnamoroll stuff, as per usual, and we also hit up a record store combined with a card and gunpla type deal. I got a Kirby blind box and a little figurine thing that seemed cute. It looks like a goddess, I think.

I've been reaading the second Onimbus for Otherside Picnic, and it's been giving me some ideas for Glass Shoe, a story I'm writing and hopefully publishing....some day. I wanna do it light novel style, with pictures and everything. Just gotta manage my confidence and such. I think I'm almost comfortable enough with drawing that I won't mind putting works in a book. I need to do some cleaning too. Tonight I'm gonna do dishes and try to manage my messes a little better.

I need to also find out why I've been so sleepy, I'm so tired. I want to wake up.

My name is Niko and I believe I am made of stardust which has surpassed gender. Instead, I find comfort in the dust in which I will one day return

Selkie made my website html, and Tekk gave me an old laptop to use. Its a clamshell ibook in teal. I like it a lot.

This week I am going to create things. I don't know what they'll be, but I'll love them. I forgot the challenge starts on Sunday so I forgot to prepare but I have everything I need. I got a kit to make a mini house thing and i have some air dry clay I'm gonna mess with. I also need to replace the jewel in the clamshell, but i made a clay replica this morning. I just need to cast the clay in silicone and then ill have a custom little imac apple i can make stuff out of. I'll also probably clean up around the house now that I can't be on my phone.